Back to school...

Back to school...

My studies will start on Monday and I'm a bit nervous. I went to some sort of information event yesterday and after that we had "introduction" time or something like that which meant I had to play some "get to know each other"-games with my future classmates (?). It was quite fun, but also really, really awkward. I  tend to feel weird and out of place with new people and I wasn't nearly as confident as I usually am (or am not :) ). Most of them seemed nice though, it's just... everyone there is younger than me and are also what you can call "young and trendy". I was sure that I'd be stared at. And actually - I was. Funny thing? In the evening I went to see punk rock show with my friend (yeah, I like those occasionally) and I met 2 (!) of my classmates there. One of them was a sister (I think) of a girl I know and the other one was just there. Awesome, right?
Anyway, still nervous, not much to say.
Aha, and here's a picture of me from September 1st - we had some sort of a beginning-of-a-new-schoolyear related public ceremony.

 I look really shapeless, haha.
The girl on the left will also be going to the same uni, so at least I'll have some people I know somewhere around the campus, yay.
Oh well... still a bit hungover (remember, punk rock show?), so I really should stop this post right here. It doesn't make much sense, does it?

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Kids say the ..... things.

Kids say the ..... things.

In the kindergarten, picking up my son (he went to a new class this year, has been going there for about a week). Two little girls were talking behind my back (about 5-6 years old, I guess) and I heard one saying to another "Look, it's this boys mom! Look at her" - "What about her?" -"Look at her face!"
I heard that and so did 3 other parents who were there (not to mention the kids who all looked at me).
So, I never thought of myself as particularly pretty, but what now? Can you scare little kids with my face or what?
Yes, I do realize that when you dress even slightly "different" you will be, in situation or another, stared at and talked about. It's just they were talking about my face. Thanks, girlies.

I'm not really sure how I feel or what I think about it all.


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Lasteaias, pojal järel, esimest nädalat uues rühmas. Päeva lõpp, riietub garderoobis. Kaks tüdrukut mu selja taga (ma arvan, et kah nii viie-kuuesed). Üks teisele: "Vaata, see on selle poisi emme! Vaata teda!" - "Mis siis on?" - "Vaata ta nägu!!!"
Vestlus oli küllalt vali, et ma kuuleksin seda, samuti ka  (vist oli) 3 lapsevanemat sealsamas rääkimata lastest, kes kõik jõllitasid mind seda kuuldes.
Ei ole kunagi end kuigi kauniks pidanud, aga no kas tõesti saab minuga juba väikseid lapsi hirmutada?
Ok, ma mõistan, et nähes välja "teistsugune", on pea vältimatu pääseda jõllitamisest ja/või kommentaaridest. Lapsed rääkisid minu näost.
Ei oskagi midagi arvata ega tunda, kui aus olla. Segadus.
Ja mis on viga vanematel, kes ei ole õpetanud oma lastele, et teiste inimeste välimust (jne) ei arvustata valjusti ja nende kuuldes? Minu meelest on see näpuga näitamisele väga sarnane.  Huh.

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Music Monday

Music Monday

 "When the road is dark and cold walk on, fearing not."

I have a confession to make: I absolutely adore Dolly Parton. I know, I know, the woman looks "artificial" and a lot of people are really prejudiced by that (or, as much as I know, even by her genre(s) of music), but I just like her for everything she is. Yeah, speaking of music, her earlier country songs are much more similar to things I'd normally listen to, but I also love her "pop" side. The thing that I like so much about her, is the attitude, the positive message she always seems to be sending out. Her life wasn't always easy, but she has always kept that smile on and her head up and she tries to share it all with people who listen to her songs. She encourages people to deal with difficulties and just to start loving their life. Isn't it something we all need from time to time? I also find it great that she still is an active performer at her age(and a great one, too!).
So without further introduction:

 

And also this one:

Isn't she inspiring?
Guess I'm going through (yet another one) a rough patch in my life. I have learned that I just need to listen to positive, inspiring, uplifting music when I'm feeling really down. So lately I've been listening to Dolly quite a lot and actually, it is helping :) (I also must admit that music has always had the power to affect my emotions. It's all like a placebo effect, I know, but if it works, it works. )

Anyone else out there trying to deal with their problems with a little help from music? Or, what makes you feel better in general? :)

 Back to Dolly, I think there's just one more song I have to include. Not so cheerful, I must say, more like... sad, but still a classic and one of my all-time favorites (there are many covers to this one, good covers as well, you should look them up!):

(oh. ja eestikeelset juttu täna ei tule. Kõik on arusaadav, onju.)

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