Wednesday, November 16, 2011

You know that you're obsessed with "Twin Peaks"...

(and by that I mean the epic David Lynch's TV-show!)

...when you realize one of your favorite T-shirts says "Bob's autoshop" and you get amused because you immediately imagine  BOB from Twin Peaks.

Thatscene fraks me out every time!



So, yeah. Sorry. I do suspect my readers might not know this show (or...even not like it. Still, if you haven't seen itd, do check it out. It's sort of amazing!).

Sorry, lack of blog posts again, struggling with school and/or personal stuff again(of which I'll probably tell at one point or another).

So I just hope you're all doing great! And see'ya later, hehe :)

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Friday, October 28, 2011

Beauty.

I think I've found my favourite photo of Bettie Page. Ever.
God, how much I adore this woman. 



 Funnily, I think nowadays she'd be considered (slightly?) too big to be "hot". Just look at the thighs. (she also seems to pull her stomach in a bit. Pre-Photoshop times, you know :)  )
Ha. Actually I found this picture in a list named "Big thighs suit her". BIG THIGHS? REALLY?
Screw you, modern beauty ideals.  She (was) gorgeous!

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Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Back to blogging: a bit about the style.

It's been a while since my last blog post. God, it sure feels awkward to start over again.
First was the grieving, later I was jusy simply busy with school and... other stuff I do.  But here I am.

Lately, I've had a lot of different thoughts about style, subculture etc.
As some of you know, I took part in this... thing on a website for women, where people can look at your pictures and tell what they think about your style. The outcome was rather interesting.
First of all - and it's a good thing!- I found out that I've learned to take criticism quite well (from random people. Close ones may be a bit different). It probably just comes with age and years and years of walking around dressed "different". I'm not really proud or the kind that would say: "They're just jealous!" etc. It's just... I'm not really bothered. Everyone has a right to have their own opinion and it's really not my business. Ha.
Anyway, about the comments. Beside the ones that discussed how old I look or how much weight should I lose (Really?! Does it have anything -at all- to do with what I wear?), there were some I'd like to comment myself. Seems that people jump to conclusions before they get their facts right. Most just know what's appropriate and what's not for someone of my style (or similar) to wear.

Who? Me? Old?!? :D

But let me tell you something:
Rockabilly (as in style of clothing etc) does not equal vintage
vintage does not equal 50's (hey, there are vintage gals wearing 30's clothing exclusively and there are vintage gals wearing a different decade's outfit every day, right?)

(modern) rockabilly does not equal the 50's either
rockabilly also doesn't equal pin-up and pin-up is not the same as 50's clothing.

:)
Those things can overlap at times and there are rockabilly girls wearing mostly vintage/50's stuff (for example). But it's not the way it works, not really.
For example, someone gave me a link of The Freelancer's Fashion Blog  to find some tips on how to dress. I consider it a nice comment, probably wishing their best :). (Also, knew that blog. Love the blog. Beautiful!) But it's just not my thing, I guess. I love vintage, I get inspired by and occasionally wear vintage clothing, but it's not something I (would) wear on a daily basis. (PLUS vintage stuff is hard to find and awfully overpriced around here anyway, so even if I really wanted to.....)

And most of all  50's inspired/rockabilly-inspired etc does what it says. It's inspired by something and it doesn't necssarily reflect the exact fashion.

That'show I described my style you see. Inspired by rockabilly, the 50's and pin-up girls. It doesn't mean that I'm dead serious about or that I look always 100% authentic.  (I don't. It's also not always all 3 of them. )

Back to the comments. It was interesting to see people commenting about me not wearing high heels :) Which kinda is connected to comments about pictures with jeans+flats/converse+bandana not fitting the style at all. (or flats with dress. That's right. )
So... jeans.
Actually jeans are a normal piece of clothing in rockabilly subculture/style AND amongst pin up girls/pictures.  As I already said, rockabilly  isn't exactly the same as vintage/etc and most of the girls in the scene don't really dress like an authentic 50's lady (who mostly wore dresses and skirts).  So yeah jeans are not out of place at all.
Heels.
Sorry to disappoint you, but no-one (except maybe for Carrie Bradshaw, but she is a fictional character :D ) wears high heels 24/7.
Of course if you look at pin-up styled photos 99% of the models would wear heels. Models. get it? :) Most of the rockabilly (not pin up, teehee) girls I know/have met wear flats  (too).  Have you tried dancing [rock'n'roll]all night  in  high heels? sure, some do it easily, but it's def. much more comfortable to manage while wearing flat shoes. (Not that I myself am much of a dancer. I have the dancing skills of a drunk hippo. But none the less :D )
I myself just ain't always comfortable with heels, I'm tall and I really like to be comfortable. Also it's not so easy to find nice high heeled shoes (at a reasonable price) when you have quite big feet like I do.

Ok those were just some details. But mostly - yeah  I think people just mix everything up :)  It's normal though, I just feel like I owe an explanation to ... the world :D


Also.... rockabilly/pin up/vintage etc etc etc girls/women are just like every girl you see. They (we) may have lazy hair days or aching feet or [insert whatever bothers you from time to time]. Non-subcultural women aren't all dolled up with high heels and hair extensions - or whatever's in- 24/7 right? :) So is no one. (Probably even not Carrie Bradshaw. Who still is a fictional character.)

So... enough of ranting, that's it for today! Hope everyone's alright :)

P.S. What's with the C. Bradshaw references all the time? :D

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Tuesday, September 27, 2011

I'm sad...

I'm really sorry for my lack of blogging. It's just lately I haven't been in the mood for that... or for anything else for that matter. You see, my dearest grandfather has passed away on Saturday. It was so unexpected, he wasn't that all, he was quite healthy and active and full of life whatever he did! And it was (still is) shocking and awful.


Grandfather, you say? He was so much more. He always loved all of us, everything he did was to make us happy. And by "us", I mean everyone! All of my family (Not even mentioning grandma, he'd do anything for her!), me, my sis, my little brother, both mine and sisters kids... My son adored him, they were really close. So I also had to break his heart by telling him, grandpa's gone, as well  :( He'd give everything he owned just to be sure we had everything we needed.
He taught me to ride a bike when I was little, taught me to ski in the winter, to recognize mushrooms and berries (and poisonous ones, to stay away from) helped me learn to swim... there's actually a lot. (yes, yes, not only me. So selfish in my grief.)So much memories, so much awesome, great, lovely memories. I should be thankful. But still, I am sad.  And it hurts to visit grandma and see her suffer.
It... it all hurts actually. (and it doesn't help at all, that I've never personally been through that kind of thing, no close family member of mine has died as much as I can remember. )
So I just try to deal with all of it, sad little ol' me.



Yes, it's a sad song, but it's beautiful. And in a way, I find it comforting.  (though it does make me cry at times)

Still, I hope everyone else is ok!

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Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Oli siis seda nüüd vaja? :D

(If someone's reading it in English, please don't, it's 100% in Estonian, so - no point :D )
Eneseõigustamine ei ole kunagi olnud mu tugev külg. Ei meeldi, ei oska, ei taha. Aga ikkagi - natuke ju võiks. Jajah, ma räägin sellest pagana Buduaari Moepolitseist :D Ei oleks pidanud üldse sinna ronima, sest kriitikat kannatan ma mõnel päeval halvemini kui teisel (ja vahel pole üldse probleemi, eks. Normaalne).
Miks ma siis üleüldse tegin seda? Tahate ausat vastust? Ma ei tea :D See tundus selline naljakas asi olevat, sai sõbrannaga (naljaga) räägitud, et "haha, ma võiks ju ka". Ja siis mõtlesin,et miks mitte? Seda enam, et osalejad saavad selle ilmselt suhteliselt ajuvaba, kuid meelelahutusliku ajakirja tellimuse (ah, mulle meeldivad ajuvabad ajakirjad, na hea neid vannis lugeda. Või aja surnuks löömiseks. Või kritiseerimiseks, hehe) ja ma üldiselt olen rahul sellega, kes ja milline ma olen.
Ja siis hakkab peale... Jah, kujutate ette, ma näengi vanem välja. Enamik inimesi ei pakuks tõepoolest lausa 45-50, kuid keskmine (alla 25-ne?) ilu-ja noorusekultusest kramplikult kinni hoidev buduaaritar  ilmselt ei suudagi mõista, et ma olen sellega kursis,  et ma üldiselt olen sellega rahul, et mul polegi mingit soovi noorem paista.
Seda, et konkreetne stiil "vanemaks teeb", tean kah. Ja olen küll vanamoodne, hea meelega :D Loomulikult, kui sa ei riietu (enamjaolt) nagu noor, siis sa ka ei paista noorena. Kuid oma osa on kindlasti kaalul, loomulikel näojoontel (ma olen alati vanem paistnud. Alati. Ka siis, kui ma veel madala vanuse tõttu üldse meiki ei kandnud. Ega mingitki stiili), elustiilil ja... Ja ma arvan, et ka hoiakul. Ma ei poseeri nagu teismeline, ma ei naerata nagu teismeline jne.  Ma olengi ilmselt parema meelega "vanamutt".
Ohjah, ja meenus, et mõni poemüüja küsib minult (?!?) siiani vahel dokumenti. Mine siis võta kinni. (Sellised seigad üllatavd mind ka, ausalt)
Ega ei olegi hetkel midagi lisada sel teemal, lihtsalt -ootasin küll ebameeldivaid kommentaare, kuid seda päris ei arvanud :D  Tundsin siiiski mingit vajadust midagi enda kaitseks öelda. Mind you, ma ei hakka näiteid tooma inimestest, kes (paljuski sarnase meikappi ja stiiliga seoses) vanemad paistavad, kuigi on ka neid. Ma ei hakka ka kommenteerijaid süüdistama, nad reeglina ei taha halba :) Selleks nad seal ju ongi, et kommenteerida ja oma arvamust avaldada. A na hea on siin isiklikus ruumis veidi sel teemal arutleda, või mis? :)
Vanamutil on igal juhul nüüd vaja kooli minna, nii et tsaupakaa :)

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